What My Parents Use To When I Got In Trouble

When I was young I use to get into a lot of trouble. I didn't use to get spanked, but I would just get scolded. My mom would be the one who would be scolding. She would tell me that I wasn't suppose to be doing that. My dad...he wouldn't do nothing. He would just look at me and say don't do that. And when I get into trouble around my sisters, I would get spanked..or get kicked out of the house. Then I would have to go to my dad's house. I know my rights and wrongs right now. My parents taught me well, even my grandparents. When I didn't know much, I use to take money that wasn't mine. Then my grandma would tell me that if I steal, my nails would turn ugly and long. I believed her, so I stopped stealing. Then when I use to get dirty or something, my mom would tell me that there are bugs in the mud. So I stopped getting dirty. I even remember the time I was playing hide and seek during the night. My grandma would tell me that the old woman would eat me. That story is an old story from long time ago. It's also a true story, there are many yup'ik stories that tell how to behave. My mom would even tell me to stop bothering my sisters. I use to bother them everyday, if they don't play with me, I would cry until my mom tells them to play with me. I use to boss around my older brother, I use to make him cry,yell, and yeah. That's my job =]. Now my lil brothers took over and start bothering me. I don't really like it, now I know how my older siblings felt when I use to bother them. Well if I had kids I would raise them like the way my mom raised me. She works her butt off to buy the things we need, or don't need. She thinks about the kids first other than herself. That's the kind of mother I would want to be. But then I don't want to have kids right now. I want to have my freedom first.

Right now im suppose to be writing about the future. About me having kids and all that. How I would raise them and all. Well I'm still young to be thinking about that right now. I want to have my freedom first. I don't to risk my freedom. But Sh$& can happen, well if I had a family of my own I would raise them how my mom raised me. Because look at me, I've been raised just fine:D Plus I would give them things like love and support to them. Well I dont want to talk about these...its too soon...sorry Broz...LMFAO!

First Time Blah Blah Blah

The First time I told someone who I liked...well I dont think I got nervous. Im an open minded person and I tell them a lot of things. LoL, I just tell them I use to like them back in the days. And tell them I use to. LoL, I dont really care if I get embarrassed, I dont care what people think of me. Thats why im like this, and I dont want to act like someone else. ITS BORING!. LoL..well I dont know what to say about meself and what about what. I just want to do all my work right now and yeah.

What My Parents Would Sacrifice For Me

I love my parents in anyway. And I wouldn't give them up for anything. I know that they care for me, love me, and watever. My mom works her butt off just to put food in our stomachs. She also tries to get us clothes behind our backs. And about my dad, we still gots to love him. He has no job, but he has love that he gives everyday. Thats what I love about my dad(even though he's annoying). LoL anyways my parents would do anything to keep us safe. And if I do something wrong, well they can be mad at me. They would also die for me too, but I would also die for them. I dont want to lose them in anyway. I dont want them to get disappointed in me. I just want to be appreciated and loved. Thats what I would want from them. Well I dont know what to say, but this is all I got.

Experiences I have had

Passively
I do alotta passives in my life...I make alot of problems and i just let them go. Ok herez a joke,
I laugh my butt off and when I need to pee, I let it happen and let it go. HAHA...im bored...I dont really have my memory about my passively years...haha...
Aggressively
I dont really care about what people think of me. So I have my way and if they dont like the way I am, well screw them. They dont have the right to judge me. So thats my story...
Assertively
I have alot of opinions but then I careless about them. Too much to tell..:P

Experiences I have had.

Conflict Resolution

WoW! my blogger thing looks colorful:D jks...well right now we were suppose to do another blog...i know im boring you cuzz this thing is boring...well we were talking about the things and i forgot what..but the teacher told us to write another blog about something....ummm..well..im just gonna write things my way..i dont like to correct my spellings while im typing....hehe..well anywayz...imma use the four steps..
Well when i have a problem..i dont use the four steps....i dont know the four steps..
i just do the usual routine when i have a problem....i usually mumble and things like that. I also take my anger out on the wall instead of my lil broz. And when i have alot of home works i sometimes i work on them or i be lazy and mind my own buziness..
thats how i roll..jks..well...i mostly do my work...:D hehe....well i guess imma stop right here..:D

Decisions

Well my decisions about how to make this fun about this blogging watever. Well this is the first time that I am going to have fun doing:D hehe..I love decorating as you can see. You dont have to
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like my blogging thing. I don't like it too:D:P Haha..well..im sorry if I boring you like...duuuhh..
but the teacher said so:P..LoL....Well he said I can make this a fun thing:D. So here I am making it
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my way:D well..I have a lot of decisions in my life I want to make. I want to graduate out of highschool. Go to college or attend flight school after I graduate. This is my big decision I made
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long time ago. I want to make my family proud of me. Because my two older sisters dropped out
and didn't get to graduate. My older bro is about to graduate soon:D. And I want to make my
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mom be proud of me. I want to let her appreciate me because I feel like that I don't get appreciate be offten. Well this is all I'm going to say for today:D
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Values and Goals

I don't know about my values. The teacher told me to write about my values and Goals. This is just another assignment I have to do. Even though i don't want to but here it goes. Well my values are my family and friends. My relationship with my family, well...I get along with my mom and my older siblings. But my younger siblings I hardly get along with. And with my friends..I mostly get along with them. Well...I don't know about my values. I don't even know what it means. The teacher said that its about relationships with my friends and family. Heh...BORING...LoL..well...hehe..screw this thing.. LoL well...my personal info you don't need to know. Ive got an attitude and I know how to use it. Well anyways time to do my Goals:D

MY GOALz:D
My long term goal is graduating and going to college. After I graduate I'm planning on going to college or go to flight school. Those goals I want to achieve, I want to make my mother proud of me:D I don't really have any more of long term goals. But I want a job that would pay my own place and get things I need for the future. Like a snowmachine or a four-wheeler, OR something like that if you know my point. Well my short-term goal is to clean up my house and keep it off the way. Well This is all im going to say...LAYDAZ..[[hope i get credit for these blogging thing]]
thats all for now..

Anger and Depression

The Reason why I picked these is because I don't know anything about anxiety. Well about anger, everybody gets mad at something once in awhile. Like my teacher, when we don't listen to him he would get quiet and look so pissed off. LoL yeah same here I get mad at something once in a while. My brother ticks me off, my family ticks me off, arguing pisses me off more. Most of all..one thing that sometimes tick me off is that when i go to church people i know would look all innocent. And when I see them around outside of the church they sin, call people names, cangaciuq, and gossip, things like that. Well it was their choice but i have no power to change that. They have to decide on their own I guess. As for me, my sister told me these stories and about dreams. After that night I DECIDED not to run away from the one who died for me. I cannot lie about that, but this time I'm taking the right direction. Well anger is just the feeling that makes you all grumpy and makes you want to beat on something or someone. Everyday there must be anger. Some people get mad at something or something even though they don't have any reasons. Well time to work on depression.

DEPRESSION
BUM BUM BUM......Depression is a decease that makes you feel sick everyday.
There are a lot of people that has some depression and some people die from it. Others too that has depression wants to die so they suicide. I know a lot of people tried doing that. And some people died from doing that. Well I don't think I get depressed. Or I just don't want to tell anyone that I too have problems. I don't like talking to people about it i just keep it all to myself and I make through all the bad and the good days. Well enough about me, lol so what you think what depression is???? well i think its a decease, that makes you body sick. Well im gonna stop right here cuz i think its long enough. my teacher didn't say I have to write about my depression. Or i dont know. Well that all im gonna say. HOLLA!

Stressers

My everyday stress is mostly at home. I don't know why but I don't want to say. Well another thing that stresses me out is that everyday in school is the same. Nothing exciting happens in Kipnuk either. That's another thing that stresses me out. Everyday there is nothing here for everyday things. People may be riding around but where would they go? Heh..this place sucks, I mean REALLY sucks. If I had a choice where to live I would probably move to Bethel. Or anywhere but here. Another thing that is really stressing is that I have a lot to work on; especially in math hour. I may not show any expressions if I'm stressed about something. That is one if the things I like:D haha well I don't want to write good on this so screw this. I just want to do what the teacher told me to do. Write in my blog thing right here until its long enough. Well thats one of the things that stresses me out. Oh yeah I forgot to tell you how I go through my stresses. When I go through stress I sometimes chew gum or listen to music, OR I go through them, face them and finish what I gotta do. Like I'm doing right now, even though I dont want to type in my blogger I'm trying to finish what I got to do. I want my work finished and get it over with. I have to write so looong cause of my teacher. Well I'm sorry if I'm boring you. But thats how I'm feeling right now, well....MATH hour is almost up and this is how far I got so far. Well I got time to tell you about my little brother. My little brother is adorable, loveable, easy to get along with, and always helping out around the house. WRONG!!!! my brother is horrible..he isn't easy to get along with, and all he does around the house eat, sleep, and [[S@#]] yeah, thats my bro, hes the one who mostly stresses me out. But I still gotta love him because he's my brother. Sometimes I feel like my parents don't appreciate me, but I still love them anyway. I don't really care if they give me hard time and the people around me that is giving me a hard time. Here I am typing everything that is going on my mind. Haha funny....well anyways I guess this is long enough. I hope I get credit for it....LAYDAZ!!!

Mental Health

Today in my class my teacher wanted us to make a blog about ourselves. First of all he came up with a title about our mental health, since we're on a subject of mental. I may have a positive or negative attitude, depends how my day is. Most of my days are negative when my brothers are being little; whatever. They Stress me out a lot, but how I overcome them is that I scream my lungs out or grumble a lot. Some people in school see me quiet, but if they really knew me, I'm wild! well not that wild but loud. If I'm in a good mood, I have a positive attitude towards others, and things like that. Well...I don't really know what to write my metal health. Sometimes I have high self-esteem, and sometimes i have low self-esteem. But the way I think about my life is okay I guess. Well the teacher said I have to describe my positive, negative, and defense mechanism. Well my positive way for the day I make sure nothing gets in the way that will make my day miserable. Whenever my brother gets me mad I listen to music and calm myself down. Whenever I'm pissed at something I try calm myself down. I listen to music, do some chores, and grumble a lot when I have a bad day. Whenever I'm in a good mood I know that my day would be a lot better, or I try to make it better. The other thing that tick me off that if someone tries to mess with my friends or my family, they're going to miss with me too. I don't like my friends and family going through a lot of things I had to grow up with. Sometimes I defend them, get into a fight. But I never fought since last year. I got so tired of it so I just went for it. If something that ticked me off for so long I lose my temper and do something I'm not suppose to do. And that's what i did last year. Well I guess this is long enough...or I don't know...this thing is getting annoying....